April 2010
1 post
太阳升起的时候，那个等你的人，觉得自己在那一刻，已经死了。
March 2010
34 posts
“It is human nature to think wisely and act in an absurd fashion.”
– Anatole France
Spontaneity
happythings:
thesecretpassageway:
Today, I was driving with my windows down and left arm extended out to feel the breeze. A car coming the other direction was making a left turn as I was coming through the stoplight towards them. Next thing I knew, the guy swerved uncomfortably close to me, extended his arm, and gave me a high five as we drove by. At first I was startled, then overcome with...
“The friend who can be silent with us in a moment of despair or confusion, who...”
– Henri Nouwen
(Submitted by christinakim)
(via quote-book)
深夜里无法坚强
害怕情绪开始沉淀的夜晚。
内心世界的欲望，总是会莫名地清晰起来。
喜欢看着神秘无声的陋巷与景色。想和它们合二为一。
仿佛自己本来就是寂静的一条街、沉默的一盏路灯、被黑暗笼罩的一栋大楼。
我的灵魂，偶尔想离开这虚壳。
白天里，理智是胜者、是权威。
到了夜晚，情绪垄断称霸。
思念让人窒息，独处加深寂寞感，决心会动摇。
我是我在夜里流的眼泪。
Conclusion
近几天，有个问题一直在脑中盘旋着： 这世上，到底什么东西是属于自己的？ 连一段爱情，都并不完全属于自己。 因为感情终究是需要两个人一起去培养、灌溉的。
但是知识是属于自己的。 The skills and knowledge that I picked up. My reflections on daily living. My values and principles. Philosophy towards life. All of these things belong solely to myself. I can utilize them and become a better person.
Yeah, a better person void of vulnerable emotions. I am not going to be cold. I just...
“In solitude the mind gains strength and learns to lean upon itself.”
– Laurence Sterne (via quote-book)
“Love isn’t a decision. It’s a feeling. If we could decide who we loved, it would...”
– Trey Parker and Matt Stone (via quote-book)
“You can search throughout the entire universe for someone who is more deserving...”
– Buddha (via littlehappythings) (via happythings)
Very true!
双子巨蟹座：神奇的交界（6月19-6月24）
在这个“神奇的交界”出生的人，很容易对浪漫、灵性的事物深深着迷，所以这型的人经常会将他们的才智、精力发挥在具有较高心灵层次的活动上，诸如家庭、宗教、哲学艺术、政治或社会等等。由于这型的人可以全心全力投注在上述活动中，因此他们常给人温和、不露锋芒的谦虚印象。无论从事何种行业，都属于没没无闻、努力耕耘的一群。但是在年纪渐长、性格成熟后，他们会变得比较积极果敢，这才逐渐展露头角。
双子巨蟹的人很容易受到诱惑，但不论是有意或无心，也很容易迷惑别人。这型的人具有天真无邪、甜美迷人的魅力，但应小心，别受骗了。双子巨蟹的人通常都有自我防卫的警觉性，但个性温和的他们一碰到感性的情境，还是会不自觉地降低警戒线，让恶人有可乘之机。企图心比较强的双子巨蟹就没这么容易上当了，只要他们立定目标，便会奋力追求，任何事情都不能加以阻碍，即使伤害了别人，他们也在所不惜。
...
周杰伦 - 发如雪
真的好喜欢这首歌
听的时候总忍不住想流泪
方文山，你是才子，我仰慕你
你写出来的歌词完全就是我们心灵的写照
一生中最渴望的东西
毕生追求的理想
一段刻骨铭心的爱情
但有些人就算花了一辈子
都未必能得到它
不交出真心，如何换来真心
但交出真心后，你却注定是个输家、注定受到伤害…
曲：周杰伦 词：方文山 狼牙月 伊人憔悴 我举杯 饮尽了风雪 是谁打翻前世柜 惹尘埃是非 缘字诀 几番轮回 你锁眉 哭红颜唤不回 纵然青史已经成灰 我爱不灭 繁华如三千东流水 我只取一瓢爱了解 只恋你化身的蝶 你发如雪 凄美了离别 我焚香感动了谁 邀明月 让回忆皎洁 爱在月光下完美 你发如雪 纷飞了眼泪 我等待苍老了谁 红尘醉 微醺的岁月 我用无悔 刻永世爱你的碑 (读唱) 你发如雪 凄美了离别...
[巨蟹座原创]学会放弃不该爱的人!
世界上有两件事是永远也勉强不了的，小时候是学习的兴趣，长大了，是爱情。 ——- 这，是一面镜子，勇敢放弃，勇敢面对，勇敢重新开始。 当他不爱你的时候，无论过去他是否爱过后来却忘了，又或者从未爱过，总之，当你无法成为他心里的那个人的时候，他的心便不会记得你，更不会在乎你。就算他知道你深爱他，偶尔也能感觉得到你的关心，但他宁可装作是不知道。不爱了的那个人永远是先放得开的，所以，请你也不要折磨自己，痛苦太长时间。要学会自然，如果你选择坚强接受，你们的结束会被认为是没有缘分，也许在他的心里，还会留下些许的遗憾；可是如果你不够理智，总是想做一些事情挽回这段已经不可能存在的爱情，那么你们的结束只能被他看成是性格不合。 ...
Just confirm it, damn it!
Dear students
Congratulations! You have been nominated by FASS for the fee waiver places for the KU Summer School 2010. Please await notification from IRO for the final acceptance of your nomination. Please note that due to intense competition for places; there is no guarantee that your nomination will be accepted.
The outcome will be dependent on IRO. You will be informed in due time.
Regards,...
霸道的情话
1、什么时候想嫁人了就告诉我,我娶你。 2、听着。我允许你喜欢我。 3、喜欢我这是革命需要，知道不？！ 4、你不会叠衣服一边呆着去！以后我来叠！ 5、我一定要给你幸福，谁也别想拦着。 6、只要你要，只要我有，你还外边转什么阿 老实在我身边待着就行了。 7、听我的就是,问那么多干嘛，我在你身边,你还走错路! 8、跟着我!不能给你幸福是我的错，但谁让你不幸福，我TMD去砍了他 9、你等着，总有一天，你会是我孙子的奶奶的！ 10、你还看 你丫再看我 我就把你吃了！别动 我咬一口 11、我都舍不得欺负的人，哪能让别人欺负？ 12、一辈子那么长，等你几年算什么。 13、我爱的人我要亲手给她幸福 、别人我不放心 14、我想你的时候我一定要找得到你 15、不许你们欺负他！全世界只有我才可以！ 16、放弃你，下辈子吧！！ 17、全天下最好的东西都应该归我所有，包括你！！ 18、先说喜欢我能死啊?...
“亲人只有一次的缘份，无论这辈子我和你会相处多久，也请好好珍惜共聚的时光，下辈子，无论爱与不爱，都不会再见 。”
“As long as you feel like you’re doing the right thing, then in the long run...”
– Ingrid Michaelson (via flickrlovr) (via happythings)
Tragic Way of Knowing
But I finally understand what it feels like to hold a graded assignment and realise that I am at the rock-bottom end of the cohort.
I made a wrong call of judgement and I am really mad at myself.
But don’t freaking judge me.
I answer to no one except myself.
“You never want your kids to see you scared. You want to be that rock that they...”
– ~Phil (Modern Family S01E16)
“一个爱你的人
可以做出许多事情来逗你开心、让你幸福
但和你爱的人在一起
他什么都不需要做
你也会感到很幸福”
你做初一，我做十五。
原来牵肠挂肚就是这样的感受…
你不应该来招惹我的。
我需要的东西，你无法给我。
你需要的东西，我也无法给你。
不应该用情的。不能把心交出来。
一个不小心，就会粉身碎骨。
我清楚自己的底线。我能够承受的就是这么多。
我玩不起。我拿得起，放不下。
我只想不受干扰地过着自己该过的生活。
真心希望你离开。
巨蟹从喜欢到爱上一个人十大标志
1.装作不在乎你却经常偷偷看你,被发现了就害羞地躲起来 2.刻意遇见你,或者特意躲避你 3.和你说话会紧张,紧张的老跑题,如果越随意说明他/她越不在乎你 4.开始注意给你身边的人留下好映象 5.开始小心处理与其他异性的关系,怕你产生一点点的误会 6.在Q上等你,偷偷去你空间,不留言 7.开始对你显露出可爱,调皮的一面,喜欢惹你生气,然后坏坏的和你说”对不起”~~ 8.即使没话题也和你说个不停,短信上不会先和你说拜拜,电话等你先挂掉 9.细心地记下很多关于你的故事,关心你,黏着你 10.天天想着你!!
谨慎
不能轻易相信。
绝对不能相信。
不能当个傻瓜。
不能被他玩弄于股掌。
不能动情。
万万不可。
“明月本无价，高山皆有情。路遥千里，难断相思。人虽不至，心向往之。”
About my 500-word personal statement in...
C: i doubt they even read it
C: i mean, when you have a CAP like yours
C: why are you even worried about this statement
Me: PLEASE hahahahaha
Me: i very yong xin write
Me: i hope they at least take a glance
C: you should have talked to me before you wrote it
C: then you could have saved the effort into maybe
C: searching for T-ARA videos
简单的标准
i cherish people who make me feel happy
and i stay away from people who make me feel bad abt myself, who hurt me.
if this person actually makes me feel happy, i'll cont to befriend him
Prisoner Of Love by Utada Hikaru
I’m a...
Astrology
Cancer/Libra The combination of your Cancer Sun and Libra Moon creates a curious blending of independence and dependence, an entwined network of contradictions. The Cancer side of you wants to withdraw and become emotional; the Libra reaches and can remain detached and analytical. There is a constant pull between sheer objectivity and intense emotionalism. You want, and in fact need,...
摘自《凤于九天》
“你是大王，怎么可以这样胡来？”
“我是大王，当然可以胡来。”
“你…你还是那个运筹帷幄，目光远大的容恬吗？”
“如果你在身边，我就是运筹帷幄，目光远大的容恬，”容恬叹道，“要是看不到你在眼前，我就只是凤鸣的容恬而已。”
***
庸人之爱，只想着怎么疼惜保护对方，实际上，这只是成全了自己。王者之爱，却是不管付出多大代价，却要成全对方。
Mid-Sem Crisis
There is a crisis at every turn of the road. -_-
I am losing it. It’s like stacking a house of cards. I am about to add the last two cards, but I know once I put them down, the entire structure WILL collapse.
I can no longer push myself. Hanging by a thread. The container is full. I just can’t absorb anymore.
When I see a blank page, I have a blank mind, not a creative one....
Questionaire~
1、对自己最想说旳一句话是什么？
拜托你勇敢一点，果断一点！
2.什么时候你会感到孤单？
下雨的时候，自己一个人吃午餐的时候 但不排斥这种感觉 （自虐）
3.目前你认为最重要的是什么?
家人、学习、生活经验
4.如果自己的另一半要你等他三年，你会等他吗？
为什么要等？不能直接和他一起吗？ 浪费三年的时间好可惜，不过他会回来我就会等
5.最近常常会想起誰？
嗯，谁呢
6.一辈子都不会忘记的事？
所有让我幸福和伤心的事
8.你对伤害你的人的态度是怎么样的？
逃避吧。不让他出现在我生命里
9.你最希望从朋友（不包括爱人）那里得到的是什么？
包容，因为我不是个好朋友
10.如果有机会做神仙你会答应么？
如果像观音菩萨那样可以行动自如、救苦救难的话，我会答应
11.30岁对你意味着？
三十而立
12.最高兴的事是什么？
好多哦。得到别人的认可的时候最高兴。
...
他说
如果你离开我了 我也不知道去那里找你了
只能希望你别再这样
因为你离开了一个正在慢慢爱上你的人
December 2009
4 posts
Hello, things to do this school holiday.
Collect passport
Career workshop
Give tuition
Work at December MAAD
Work at January MAAD :D
Source out internship
Decide whether or not to take Honours [Will take!]
Tidy room on New Year’s Eve
Write New Year Resolutions [for no purpose]
Help out and have fun at Ethel’s Birthday Party
Bounenkai Shin Nen Kai with SoKaECo
Organize Shinhwa videos (found someone to help!)
...
Advice from a good friend
Me: i hope i can become someone really capable in future
G: i sensed the change in you too and i think you're heading for some high paying job
G: i think you're very determined and you will do well!
G: all you need is just a little more faith and confidence in yourself!
Me: thank you!!
Me: i hope this doesn't sound like an excuse, but the past has left scars... and that compounds my already low self-esteem T_T
G: but you have to overcome those scars ok
G: you are way better than you think
G: serious
G: maybe you shouldnt be so hard on yourself anymore
G: recognise your achievements and reward yourself ok?
Motivation from Babydoll
“Up’s message: You make a goal and set off; things happen on the way and you get sidetracked; the journey is the destination. You need all three. Without a set, shining goal you’d never budge; Without the elasticity to take things as they come, you’d never withstand the unpredictability of life; Without realizing the last, you won’t far outlast the completion/failure...
November 2009
38 posts
摘自《不配的恋人》
真爱就是没有条件。当你爱上一个人，不管他有多丑、多老、多难看也不管他是强盗、杀人犯，还是十恶不赦的罪人，你都爱他，哪怕你觉得自已不值，哪怕你觉得他从外貌上根本配不上自己，哪怕你明知不该去爱，你都爱他，无法控制，就像丧失理性一样爱着他，没有他不行。因为他就是那个人，你一直在找的那个人。当你遇到那个人的时候，所有的条件，都化为尘土，所有的要求，都他面前消失无形，所有的一切，你曾经以为那么重要的、非执着追求不可的东西，全部变为虚无，变得只要他就好。
至理名言
爱情，是给特定的人的，一个可以接纳自己也被自己接纳的人…
{ Kim Bum Soo - 슬픔보다 더 슬픈 이야기 }
Kim Bum Soo,...
Data Recovery Centre and Service?
Gosh, I am such a geek ._.;
Vulnerability
I knew it.
The moment I started chasing these lost feelings and fragments of memories, I knew I was digging my own grave.
Now my greed won’t let me be. I suffer from compulsive collecting. Seeing pictures and not owning the videos KILLS me.
I am drowning again. It’s my punishment for abandoning something and then shamelessly wanting it back.
-getting way too invested-
{ … S - 사랑밖에 모르죠 (Love Is What I Need)...
“什么才是强？力量？智慧？那都是有限的。只有肯为自己守护的东西奉献一切的精神才是无边的。”
– ~ 莫子畏 “出云七宗罪”
3 Things
1) CD-Rs produced by Creative sucks. All my burned data from 2005 are no longer retrievable!
2) I have been waiting for the 8th episode of Modern Family since FOREVER. When will the torrent be out!!! >_< Grr. Modern Family PWNS The Office this season. As it turns out, the 8th episode is only airing on 18 Nov because they skipped a week. ARGH.
3) There is no true joy in resting when you...
Dreams reveal inner desire?
Yesterday night, I dreamt that I spoke fluent Japanese in a supermarket so as to obtain my spree items from different people.
It was a weird dream, but I felt an overwhelming sense of achievement when I woke up.
I thought it was pathetic :)
Mental
Note to self: Got to stop turning this tumblr blog into a fanblog.
-_-
It’s the last day of school!
Once today is over, I won’t take a second look at this semester.
Well, except the awesome friends I made :D